i'm beggining to see...

this doesn't make sense.
how one moment everythings right, and good.
and the next is full of confrontation.


makes no sense...

eh, maybe this isnt true, but

I feel like i'm putting all the effort into this "friendship"
and im sorry but i cant take it anymore.
It feels like you never want to talk to me, and im an inconvience.
So i will no longer be the one to talk to you.
if you want to be friends, prove it.
But im sure you'll replace me very quickly.
even if i am "important" to you.

Whatever, it doesnt even matter.

a good friend gave me good advice

she sent me this lovely email that was sincere enough to share with you.
plus, i love her.




Lovey,

I'm going to type and you're going to listen.
First off, babe, you're an inspiring young woman.
You work your ass off for what you want, because your work ethic is quite honestly unbelieveable, and you dont let anything get in your way.
I admire that.
Next(ly) you have a beautiful personality. You value other people's happiness over your own, you just want a tiny honorable mentioning in the publication of their joy. You know what you want and you wont take anything less than that.
You really are an honest person, your sincerity amazes me.
And if CERTAIN boys (*CoughAsshole*Cough*) cannot see that, well than, there not worth it, especially your tears.
You're a very talented girl and you deserve the best, you deal with everything you're dealt(things that most people would turn into a basket case because of), and you handle it with poise.
You put up with everyone's shit and try at all costs to understand.
Also, you're unbelievable at crafty, art, or musical related things.
You have an amazing talent for writing lyrics, and to be blunt, you're a very beautiful (and verrrrrryyy adorable) girl


You deserve all you can get.

Dont settle for less.

Love (with the truest of allll looooovvve)

Chany.

i dont know how i feel

I had alot to say.

but ill leave you with a challenge and a word.

Find whats wrong with this picture.

word of the day: contusion.

liar, liar, pants on fire

Boys are liars.
they tell you just what you want and need to hear.
and you feel special.
IMPORTANT.
and all around appreciated.



The sad part is they're telling someone else what they just told you.

After Highschool,

We're going to travel the world.


I really can't wait.
Just to see everything.
I think we should first travel the US in an old volkswagen bus.
East Coast to West Coast.
And stay in Cheap Motels.
Thats the life.

Then we should travel Europe.

And then Japan.

That'll be the days, right?

The Best Medicine, isn't a pill.

"The happiest moments my heart knows are those in which it is pouring forth its affections to a few esteemed characters." - Thomas Jefferson

Because THIS is what friends look like.

I won't lie.

Im a fragile person.

Im easily hurt.

And my wounds have a tendancy to never fully heal.

But these girls would be my hello kitty bandaids.

They are the reason i actually talk, instead of thinking all the time.

They've helped me out of my own mind.

Which obviously makes them special.

<3